October 2025

Sunday, October 12, 2025

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And when you pay close attention you can see the gum drops laid out on the path leading you to your life’s purpose. I’ve been picking them up and eating them happily. I may have even gotten a cavity. Happily might be a stretch because getting out of your comfort zone can be uncomfortable as is the change that comes with it. In community college I had a professor make me read aloud, very rarely would he allow another student to read from the textbook. I remember him telling me you can always tell when people are used to only reading to themselves. In university, I had to take a public speaking course and had a moment when the professor didn’t say anything — he just watched me shift uncomfortably in front of the class, purposefully. I’ve always been shy, introverted but the more I grow and discover myself the more I realize I enjoy using my voice and I love performing in front of others. My voice still shakes but there is no feeling like it.

I performed over the weekend in front of my family who had never seen me beyond what I post online. The theme was joy and homage and of course I couldn’t help but dedicate a poem to my Grandmother who not only makes me joyous but has championed me in my poetry ventures. I was so honored when she asked that I perform at our family’s art exhibition. It felt like a family reunion with so much support in the room. Afterwards. I learned a more about the local poetry scene and was given some advice. I may very well take the leap and pick up the next gum drop: acting classes, they had crossed my mind, or even audio books. I get told to start a podcast often. I’m being guided to use my voice and I’m just at the start of what can very well be a turning point in my career. How exciting!