One-Third
It’s been ten days since I’ve embarked on my social media cleanse and besides the couple of times I checked Nicki Minaj’s Instagram — I have an album and tour to get ready for chile, it hasn’t been as hard as I thought it would be. In those ten days, I’ve gained 60,000 followers, traveled to Miami, Vegas, LA, Mexico, New York two times over, been in blogs, feuded in tabloids and was even discussed heavily over social media, all in Kim Kardashian Hollywood of course. Surprisingly, I’ve been having such a fun time playing it though I am almost embarrassed to say I’ve spent real money on it.
(Side note: Remember when Farmville first came out on Facebook, or even Candy Crush? The aunties was spending hard earned coin on those games! Well, I’m officially an auntie so this is my moment.)
I touched on it in my latest quickie, Calm Down, but I’ve been taking advantage of having less distractions and instead have been putting more effort into what fulfill me. Since finishing the 30 day poetry challenge, I have yet to write a single line of poetry, actually that may not be the whole truth, but I have yet to finish the poem I started and it’s been days. I am undertaking a big project involving writing poetry and sharing more of my life and my story, it feels like I’m about to birth something amazing and meaningful to me and that excites me!
Sad to say that my time as a tourist in the city is coming to an end, I’ve got a NY ID after all, have visited almost all of the major museums, can mostly understand how to take the subway and have watched a least three women pee out in the open — I believe that checks off all of the major requirements to be an official city resident. Not to mention the countless number of subway performances I’ve been subjected to.
I’m planning to start volunteering soon. An ongoing lesson in life that is reinforced time and time again is to never take anything you have for granted. I have so much and I’m so lucky to have family, friends, support and even the things I personally consider to be human rights like housing, food, and water. I want to give back because I’ve been given so much, it feels like the right thing to do. The sad reality is, relying on a government that is only out for itself does nothing for your community, it’s up to us alone to pull each other up.
When it comes to getting a job, I am wholly uninterested, just wanting to have a farm and be taken care of but since this is not my reality yet, I’ve been looking around. The idea of working another 9-5 sounds like torture and anywhere you go it seems there are cliques running rampant, which feels just like high school and I would rather not relive that again. Maybe I’m jaded but there’s part of me that would rather be my own boss, I’m tired of people telling me what to do. How I’ve managed to hide my problems with authority for this long is beyond me, but masking it is tiring.
Until I figure out what it is I want to do, I know working with children would fulfill me. Though there is much we can teach children, I find that there is so much more they can teach us. My brother and sister always offer me another, more simplistic, perspective of situations and myself that help me better navigate the world. Truly I believe children really hold the key to fixing so much wrong with the world. Now if only people didn’t feel the need to talk down and project on them and actually took time to listen, we would be better off.
Why can’t we get paid to just sit in the park and be human? I’m not sure. Right now, I’m having a picnic in Central Park, under a large tree, next mothers and nannies with strollers filled with children, dog owners and walkers, and sun bathers. And other than encroaching on the bugs natural habitat and subsequently being attacked by them, life is good!
Songs I have on repeat:
Secrets - A Boogie with the Hoodie ft. Mariah the Scientist
Lightning Strikes - ARTY ft. Jonathan Mendelsohn
Darkest Hour - Astrid S
Just Another Interlude - Bryson Tiller
Truffle Butter - Nicki Minaj ft. Drake and Lil Wayne (YMCMB stadium tour soon some? Starving myself to attend.)
Dakiti- Bad Bunny & Jhayco
Currently reading:
The Murder of Roger Ackroyd by Agatha Christie — starts a little slow but I’m so close to figuring out who really murdered this rich man and when money is involved, everyone has a motive.
