All Eyes on Ashanti
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When the Party’s Over…

Wednesday, November 12, 2025

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Can’t trust the weather man
Who for years never predicted rain
‘Cause we’ve partied through storms
Fueled by generations of pain
The children have joined us
You see they old enough to take a hit now
Lean over, don’t fall down
Old enough to bring a bottle
Bring the whole crew ‘round!
And the next rounds on me
Too fearful to change
Learned from my family
Watched them do the same — cope!

And I’ve been dealing with shame
‘Cause I finally looked around
There were no presents, no balloons,
not even a clown!

Mixing uppers with downers
Trauma only taught us to drown
Our gifts? They’d been passed down
And was soon pawned off
When we needed a quick fix
Swore we’d get ‘em back
But what year is it?
This right here is all we ever knew

Decided I wanted more
Perspective shift, felt more was in store
The clouds parted for me
My clothes are no longer drenched
I heard birds chirping
While sat on park bench
So I sing wit ‘em,
Sun dried my eyes
Took control back
Gave thanks to the sky

Top Left: Catwoman ❀Performed August 7, 2024
Bottom Left: Lovers and Friends ✿ Performed August 30, 2024
Top Right: Robin Hood ᪥Performed October 11, 2024
Bottom Right: My (Other) Grandma ✿ Performed October 11, 2025

lately…

  • Sunday, October 4, 2025

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    Winds blows through blades of grass
    Through twisted strands of hair
    It is during these moments
    I allow myself to not care
    About perceptions, expectations
    About making others proud
    About how I choose to express myself aloud

    The dragonflies take flight
    Across the grassy knoll
    The young children lie down
    And as their bodies roll

    I close my eyes and face towards
    The sun — which cradles me close
    In a warm, gentle embrace,
    The future — unwritten and yet
    My freedom, my escape
    Is held in my hand, in the form of a pen
    Taking my far beyond
    Where fear has ever been
    With my heart on my sleeve

    As my commander — it leads, I follow it
    To that which I have always dreamt,
    Devoted and true
    Fulfilling wishes and promises
    I never outgrew

  • Thursday, July 10, 2025
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    And I gave up hunting for it
    Chose to actually live
    Found in each moment
    It began by teaching kids
    Let them and you ignite me
    A renewed love for life
    My passion now overflows
    Emotions conveyed through prose

    The sky is cloud covered
    I’m an imitation in yellow
    — genuine flattery!
    Dressed up in optimism
    Joy dawned on me
    There were flowers at the door
    I took the morning slow
    Went to the garden to explore

    The past will remain that
    There was much to be released
    A full moon on my twenty-ninth?
    I’ve earned this peace

  • Saturday, June 21, 2025
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    What I wouldn’t give to hear my name played on the lips of another. But maybe it’s better that you’re a wordless storyteller — a rhythmic muser, strumming from a soul level, no sheet music necessary. You called out to me, thankfully, because I never learned to read people’s intentions from paper but rather from how they evoke emotions within. I can’t play but I write my wrongs on nights like this when the world is quiet, the bottle has seeped in and I’m spilling truths from my pen into a journal I considered discarding. ‘Cause it’s filled with thoughts of a you that never existed. My own fault. I was caught in your rift, left torn between what could’ve been and what’ll never.

  • Monday, May 26, 2025
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    Listen closely and you’ll hear me
    From the mouths of those:
    Who struggle to bundle up,
    Fighting frostbite in the winter;
    Who chat incessantly during
    What you wanted to be a quiet drive;
    Speaking from learned experience
    Hoping to spare your heart;
    Born yesterday with the wisdom
    Of generations that came before;
    Passionately singing melodies that
    Ignite a dimmed flame;
    Looking in the mirror knowing
    What they search for is found within.

  • Wednesday, May 21, 2025
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    I turn away from the screen
    Remembering I am more than this job
    Sunshine washes over my being
    I meditate, much rather create
    That which helps me connect
    Me to you, you to me
    A universal experience —
    Cannot be the only
    Wishing for more in store
    Yet, if I was ready
    I would be placed

    I meditate, readjusting
    Because I’m caught in-between
    Living in the present,
    Looking forward to a future
    That I’m better not knowing
    Out of my head, into my body
    Learning to just be…

  • Friday, May 9, 2025
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    Street lamps provide spotlights
    Underneath, two lovers walk
    Brushing hands and making plans
    One of them hums a jingle
    In the other’s pocket, a ring jangles
    To the tune of their favorite song
    Which they perform together
    Now walking arm in arm
    Neither enjoys surprises
    But what better time than this?
    After a day inside their
    Bubble of lover’s bliss

    The one to burst it kneels
    In their heart a thrill
    Shrouded in darkness, the other
    Knows to step forward means
    Wedding bells, forever spells
    A brand new reality
    Shaking with anticipation
    How much longer on bended knee?

    Jumping into open arms
    And spun around in glue
    Committed to sharing life
    Times, of happiness forseen

  • Friday, May 9, 2025
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    There was always a softness to you
    That went beyond the eyes
    We’ve spent years together
    Would never forget the ties
    Or the look upon your face
    I find myself in a bind
    Not easy to let go of that
    Which I hold so dear
    Why be expected to do away with
    The only one who could hear?
    Thinking back there is much
    You’ve chosen to leave unsaid
    Learned I wasn’t the only
    Hanging on by a thread
    Stuffing strewn around the room
    No space on this bed we laid
    We’ll find a way to sew up
    This mess that we have made