Overstimulated

Today I realized it’s time to take my anxiety more serious and seek professional help. (Maybe my phrasing is a bit dramatic…) My cousin had a baby shower today and she looked stunning! I got to see family I hadn’t seen in a few months, catch up a little, give some hugs, take some photos, but eventually, I got the feeling that I needed to escape. “I gotta get out of here.” I caught an uber and just left, I didn’t say anything (I should have) but I just had to leave. It was like I couldn’t breathe. There was so much going on around me it was so overwhelming.

When I got home I had a really good conversation with my mother about how I felt and she recommended a therapist and I think it’s finally time I go. I’ve been talking about it for years but never finding one and making an appointment. This time around I’m actually ready for change, it took me a while to get here but I’m proud I did! Life is so good right now, I want to continue to heal and move forward and grow (while also staying in the moment and enjoying the life I have right in front of me.)

Also, I realized that I really don’t believe in coincidences. Right before the baby shower I went to a birthday brunch and ran into my 7th grade science teacher Ms. Grant. At first it was bit awkward and I’m pretty sure she doesn’t remember my name but I’m getting good at small talk thing and we talked about life. I told her I was doing good, and I truly am because I started living in the moment and enjoying everything I have. To think I had that conversation earlier that day, about one lesson I learned, and now it feels I’m on my way to learn my next one, life is just coming full circle.