emotional exhaustion
I don’t feel I have many people to talk to about what’s going on right now. Or people I want to talk to. I keep a lot of what I’m feeling bottled up. So this is a brain dump for my feelings and it might be all over the place but I’m tired. I’m exhausted actually. I couldn’t truly articulate it if I tried.
During a pandemic, which is already killing black people at a disproportionate rate, we still have to worry about being murdered by those that are paid to serve and protect us.
Emotionally, I am exhausted.
I can’t sleep. I’ve cried more than I have in months. There’s a lingering tightness in my chest.
I don’t care for pretty selfies right now or memes.
Now is not the time to be talking about “black on black crime.”
I want people to stop being contrarians for engagement and analytics.
I don’t care about people looting multi-million dollar corporations. Or what we “look like” to white people while fighting against injustice.
Please read the room! None of that matters right now. Right now people are fighting for their lives, their rights. Treated differently because of skin color alone.
I’m angry. frustrated. disappointed.
I wasn’t sure there was a way to become more isolated during a quarantine. I didn’t think I would have felt the need to.
If you’ve also felt this heavy weight on your shoulders and in your heart, please take step away from your phone and your computer. Disconnect. (And it sounds easy to say but it feels so hard to do right now because I want to know what’s happening.)
Let yourself feel your emotions, whether it’s anger at the injustices, sadness at the deaths, or disappointment in your friends for not doing their part in these situations.
Don’t keep it bottled up. What you’re feeling is valid.
I wish I had more positive things to say.
Right now, I pray for our safety and overall well-being.
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Share & Donate
If you are not able to donate, please share. I’ve included petitions you can sign. You can also send emails, many people have email templates that take a simple copy and paste, make a few calls, send a couple of text messages. It takes a few seconds.
I’ll be coming back and adding more links to this as the days progress:
Bail Funds
Minnesota Freedom Fund — Match my $20 donation!
Louisville Community Bail Fund
Peoples City Council Freedom Fund
More bail funds as more protests occur across the country
Organizations
Gofundmes, Memorial Funds & Petitions
Official George Floyd Memorial Fund
Up the charges for the cop in George Floyd’s case
Demand Justice for Tony McDade
Justice for Tony McDade (when prompted to donate on Change.org, please just share the link instead!)
Justice for Breonna Taylor Petition
Bond, Legal, Medical For Sha’Teina El Grady
Messiah Young and Taniyah Pilgrim Bail Money
Send a text!
text “FLOYD” to 55156 to sign a separate petition with Color Of Change to demand justice for George Floyd
And here is a thread of what you can do if you can’t donate right now.
Here is a linktree someone has put together with information ranging from dealing with trauma and mental health at this time, reading lists, and additional organizations.
More ways you can help, that’s constantly updating found here!
