Check-In

When I’m focused on an objective, I have tunnel vision, I see nothing else but the goal in mind. Hyperfixated, until I accomplish what I set out to do then boredom kicks in and it’s time to move onto another goal. What I’ve learned during the first eighteen days of this poetry challenge is that I do have the capacity to be committed. I never thought I would see the day!

I been talking about balance lately and feeling even been more drawn to yin/yang imagery (everything gets taken as a sign) so when 



writing started to feel like a chore instead of something light and fun, I knew it was because I hadn't written or posted anything besides poetry in weeks. Variety is the spice of life and it feels good to share what's been on my mind.

The lesson I'm learning at this time in my life is that you have to allow yourself to change. Don't stay bound to the expectations of others. Stuck in my own cycles for so long, when I finally stopped trying to change people, stopped trying to please them and just changed myself, I finally closed a cycle instead of repeating it. I'm proud of that.


I never used to look forward to what life would be like as an adult, I always felt mature for my age. Now that I'm an adult all I want to do is get back into all the things I loved or missed out on as a kid. I've been wearing more pink, which I used to pretend to hate in place of black back in my angstier days. Coloring and painting, which I used to do with my grandparents. I'm leaning into being more silly, laugh more, to stop over complicating life. My world is colorful again.